What the heck? Why am I so gloomy?

So gloomy lately!

I have had some people who have said they were my "friends" block, delete, and talk about me behind their backs.
It's quite upsetting to have this happen. I don't think I'm a bad person, I actually have been told that I am very kind, and loving but when it comes to military spouses... Yikes!
I don't know what I do but man, I drop them quick!

Honestly, I'm glad that the one person who 'dropped' me actually did that. She had been talking about her friends behind their backs to me the last time we hung out, then the next day she was having dinner with them. Warning sign much?

The others, I could care less. I don't need drama in my life. I have enough in our house with our new baby blue/gold macaw (I haven't been on in a while huh?), our two dogs, my husband and our son. That's enough to handle along with school, and the search for a job that will pay enough to be worth my time.

So I don't make friends or keep them easily. It sucks. I agree with my husband when he says that we just need to get out of the military and plant ourselves someplace and go from there. We aren't military material. I thought I would be until I moved to DC and then out here to Vegas.
This crap is hard!!! The ladies I befriended in DC made it look so darn easy!

If you really want to make friends with military spouses, hang out on base or live there. But for me, I don't like base, I avoid it at all costs and I don't really like military spouses because they tend to be flakey. Especially if they live on base. Don't get me wrong, I have met a couple ladies who are so kind and they live on base but they moved. (See my problem here???)

My gosh.

So I was sitting in my living room the other day, folding laundry and I was thinking of how cool it would be to start a YouTube channel. Our life is pretty interesting even on a mundane day like Monday. Let's see today (as in yesterday, aka Monday) I had to hand feed the bird, wash the puppy who decided that tipping over the bird formula and then rolling in said formula would be a great idea, I cleaned up said formula and made more while my three year old was yelling that he had to go to the bathroom while standing right. outside. the. door. of said bathroom.

Then our oldest dog was crying because she couldn't get her bone out from underneath the couch, my husband called to tell me that he forgot something but he didn't know what it was so to be prepared to look for unknown item, the garden/clean up guys came to 'garden' our non-exsistant back yard which btw will be covered in rocks after this weekend (yay for the landlord finally listening).

We also had someone else's package delivered to us, my son asked 1000000000000000000 questions in 2 seconds and expected proper answers to every. single. question.

And I wrote a 10 page paper in 4 hours!

Oh heck yes!

Happy Monday everyone!!

PS... I started doing core exercises again.
PSS. My belly looks like it has blown up thanks to said exercises :(

My Life is REALLY a gift from God above!!

First I should say that we had an amazing New York vacation!! 

It made me realize that we don't need to search for a place to call home once we are done with the military because Upstate Ny IS home!

It was so cold there and we ALL got sick (because of the cold) but it was HOME.

Jeremiah had so much fun being with our family and opened up so darn quick! 

Our next step is to get back there as soon as possible! 

So now that we have been home for a couple of days, I'm sick like usual. I'm so thankful I wasn't sick there. I am so glad I was able to enjoy our two week break from hell (vegas). 

Please keep our family in prayer that we will be able to move either back home for good with decent jobs or that we can move back close enough to drive with really good jobs.

My dad (saba), my grandmother (oma), my aunts and uncles, my cousins, our friends, they all loved having us there. With Jeremiah and whatever future children we may have I know that we can depend on them being there for support, more support than we have had the entire time out here. 

Not saying that we don't have a support group here but really it is not the strongest group ever. 

So, we got a new puppy! His name is Cooper and he is a yorkie-poo! 

He's a spunky little guy but he fits quite well with our family!!

We got him in Ny at the same place we got our Maggie almost 6 years ago!

We are so happy to have him, even though Maggie is still the queen pup. ;)

So tonight something amazing happened. 

My husband who really didn't want to be a father this young; did something so astounding that I had tears in my eyes!

He had brought up Jeremiah's fish tank up to his room because he's afraid of the air vent on the ceiling and the fish help him sleep thanks to the light on their tank. 

Anywho, I heard him come upstairs while I was getting ready for bed so I knew that he was situating the tank on Jerm's dresser. 

I walk quietly up to the door and peek in and I see him laying in bed next to our son and he tells him;

"You are safe as long as I am here. Mommy is safe, BunBun (stuffed rabbit) is safe, Maggie is safe and Cooper is safe. As long as I am here you have nothing to worry about buddy."

To many, that would just be sweet. Awwws and how cutes and so on. 

To me, it means the world!

My husband has always had a hard time figuring out his role as a dad. His dad wasn't in his life the way that he is in our son's life. His dad is an amazing dad but his parents divorced before he could even roll over, so sometimes he is overwhelmed by everything that is thrown his way when it comes to parenting. 

(I'm not much better considering my mother was and is a deadbeat who didn't want me in the first place. So I've learned as much as I can from interacting with moms who I see as role models. Books, and using my "motherly intuition")

I think I have said this before but we have so many marks against us for our marriage, raising children and just living our lives to the fullest; so anytime something like this happens, I'm overjoyed! It reminds me how deeply our Lord has blessed us. 

No matter how hard we may have it at times (which honestly isn't that hard), and no matter how complicated our lives are out here in Vegas.

We are blessed with this AMAZING gift from the Lord!

I feel so LOVED when I hear my husband reading scripture, or saying the kindest things to our son or when he does something to HELP me around the house that honestly he doesn't have to do. 

Blessings from above, are life's biggest treasures!

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Money can only buy so much, all of the rest comes from those who are worth more than their weight in gold. 

I really hope your Thanksgiving was a happy one! While back home we visited with my family and then visited with my inlaws whom drove up to Ny from Fl to visit with us!

It was an amazing trip even with all of us sick at the end of the trip. 

I also made a small thanksgiving dinner this past saturday because honestly, we didn't get any leftovers and that really is one of the best parts!

Hopefully I will be feeling better so our huge Christmas tree can go up along with the decorations for the house (nothing to fancy!). 

Well y'all! You all have a great night, until next time!!