What the heck? Why am I so gloomy?

So gloomy lately!

I have had some people who have said they were my "friends" block, delete, and talk about me behind their backs.
It's quite upsetting to have this happen. I don't think I'm a bad person, I actually have been told that I am very kind, and loving but when it comes to military spouses... Yikes!
I don't know what I do but man, I drop them quick!

Honestly, I'm glad that the one person who 'dropped' me actually did that. She had been talking about her friends behind their backs to me the last time we hung out, then the next day she was having dinner with them. Warning sign much?

The others, I could care less. I don't need drama in my life. I have enough in our house with our new baby blue/gold macaw (I haven't been on in a while huh?), our two dogs, my husband and our son. That's enough to handle along with school, and the search for a job that will pay enough to be worth my time.

So I don't make friends or keep them easily. It sucks. I agree with my husband when he says that we just need to get out of the military and plant ourselves someplace and go from there. We aren't military material. I thought I would be until I moved to DC and then out here to Vegas.
This crap is hard!!! The ladies I befriended in DC made it look so darn easy!

If you really want to make friends with military spouses, hang out on base or live there. But for me, I don't like base, I avoid it at all costs and I don't really like military spouses because they tend to be flakey. Especially if they live on base. Don't get me wrong, I have met a couple ladies who are so kind and they live on base but they moved. (See my problem here???)

My gosh.

So I was sitting in my living room the other day, folding laundry and I was thinking of how cool it would be to start a YouTube channel. Our life is pretty interesting even on a mundane day like Monday. Let's see today (as in yesterday, aka Monday) I had to hand feed the bird, wash the puppy who decided that tipping over the bird formula and then rolling in said formula would be a great idea, I cleaned up said formula and made more while my three year old was yelling that he had to go to the bathroom while standing right. outside. the. door. of said bathroom.

Then our oldest dog was crying because she couldn't get her bone out from underneath the couch, my husband called to tell me that he forgot something but he didn't know what it was so to be prepared to look for unknown item, the garden/clean up guys came to 'garden' our non-exsistant back yard which btw will be covered in rocks after this weekend (yay for the landlord finally listening).

We also had someone else's package delivered to us, my son asked 1000000000000000000 questions in 2 seconds and expected proper answers to every. single. question.

And I wrote a 10 page paper in 4 hours!

Oh heck yes!

Happy Monday everyone!!

PS... I started doing core exercises again.
PSS. My belly looks like it has blown up thanks to said exercises :(

AHHHH I GIVE UP!!!

I feel like that EVERY day during nap time! I had a schedule going really well for a while.

8am -- Jerm wakes up, potty, breakfast, clean up, fold laundry with momma, downstairs to play

10am -- Snack time

11am -- Quiet time and or nap time (Mommy cleans, works on homework, down time)

1pm -- Lunch 

1:30- 4pm -- Arts and crafts, music time, story time, playtime, etc.

3pm -- Snack time

4pm -- Mommy starts dinner; self lead play

5pm -- Daddy comes home from work

6-7pm -- Dinner time

7:30-8:30pm -- Bath time, relax, lots of books and snuggles

9pm -- Bed time

What my schedule has looked like since my father in law came to visit almost a month ago (Not blaming you dad!!). I should also mention my husband was home for two weeks and that really screwed everything up.

7-9am -- Wake up

10am -- Eat after 20 mins of tantruming

11am -- "Lord please let him go down for a NAP!!!"

Noon -- Mommy is falling asleep in the recliner, Jerm refuses to eat lunch

1pm -- "Please eat!" "OOOOOOOOOO!!!!!" (no in Jerm)

1:30pm -- 20 mins of ear piercing screams because he is way over tired and refused to eat but is now using it as an excuse to get out of his rom. Finally today as in August 23rd, 2013 I realized that I can give my son a few books and open his curtains (not the blinds) a little and he will read himself to sleep. 

Thank you LORD!!!!

2-4pm wake up from nap demanding to eat and only eat half just in time for daddy to walk in the door to wonder why the house is a mess and why I'm rocking in the corner I am standing like a statue with a frying pan in my hand. 

9-midnight is his bedtime and well that's why I've been so darn tired!

Tonight WILL be a different story. After he wakes from his lovely two hour nap (That I will be cleaning during, except now because I'm writing a lovely blog entry :) 

we will be going to the park in our development and he will be able to climb and jump and slide and we will bring the bat and ball and he can do whatever he darn well pleases while I sit on the side with a homemade frappuccino taking photos and praying for some sort of tan :)

With that said, I am tired. I also need to buy a new blender because using a mini food processor as a blender is so much work!!! I end up having to make 5 separate "mixes" of the delish drink. 

Grocery List for tonight:

Blender

Chocolate Syrup

Carmel Syrup

Ice Cube Trays with lids 

So I am all about trying to save a dollar or two. Although I'm not a big coupon person if I see something in our "garbage" mail I clip it and stick it in my wallet and try to remember to use it. Well, I am challenging myself to start using coupons because a. I want to save more money, and b. I just bought a new printer for a really awesome price if I do say so myself! Too bad I had it for a week before I figured out how in the heck to connect it to WiFi but hey, I'm not perfect nor are you so don't judge.

Anyways, I'm looking for great deals on clothes, organic/natural foods, and so on. If you know me in "real life" you would know that my family is trying to live the most natural life as possible. Some times though we need bleach or more often than not we eat out. 

When we eat out we try to pick the healthiest places to eat or eat the healthiest thing on the menu. So if we are going to In n Out, I will get a burger protein style. Which essentially is everything but the bun and it's all wrapped in lettuce. 

So I'm challenging myself and you out there in blogger land, to find coupons and use them to help you eat healthier! Even if that means eating a burger without a bun ;)

Tata for now!

WHY MACBOOK?!?!? WHY?!?!?!

Dear MacBookPro,

            Let’s make this easy okay? I switched to you because I knew how awesome Apple was compared to Microsoft. The ease of use paired with my iPhone, iPad and in the near future our iPad mini for Jerm, Mac desktop and maybe a Apple TV would be a overall amazing experience.

            No need for expensive antivirus, everything easy to use and that handy little bar at the bottom of my main screen with all of my most used programs only a click away.

            So, now that I have you and I have been using you for school, work and home use. Why do you hate me so? I bought you a beautiful case, I make sure that my toddler keeps his hands off of you and you still hate me.
            Today is a sad day MacBookPro. A very sad day. I had to turn to my handy dandy Microsoft pc so I could play a simple game of Sims (I love building the houses, don’t judge). You wouldn’t load the simple game and now, I cry.

            You also decided to update three times in a row and I couldn't use you for homework! I enjoy reading my very long and drawn out textbook on your dimly lit screen while listening to ocean waves on youtube while in bed snuggled up to my dog and my uber soft blankets. 

            Please redeem yourself from this and make tomorrow's two hour study session go smoothly!

Sincerely,

Your very lost owner

Ps. I totally love my Mac ;)

Gotta PEE!!!

That is what my son is saying to get me to go and "rescue" him from his room.

He just went to the bathroom, washed his hands and so on before his night time diaper was put on. 

It's five of eleven.

This has become a daily event in our home. I know it's because he's two and a half and he's trying to control his environment the only way he knows how....

Screaming anything that may let him out of his room for a few more minutes, even a second would be awesome in his mind. 

This only happens when he is extremely tired. And considering that we laid him down at 8:30 rather than the usual 9pm; this is quite weird even for him.

Oh toddlerhood, why are you so darn mean to me!!?!?!?!

Other news, anthropology hates me. I had the beloved 4.0 gpa up until this point and now I will be lucky if I get over a 3.5. Dang it! I've got to kick it up a notch! 

I really don't like anthro. I understand the purpose of the class, realizing that our little box of a world that we live in here in the US is not the only world. Every thing we do, effects someone else. No matter who or where they are, they can be effected. 

Being the smart butt that I am, I thought I would look up anthropology videos on youtube. 

I was so sick by what I saw that I couldn't finish the video. It had nothing to do about the people in the video, it had to do with what was happening to those poor people who just wanted to live their simple lives. I actually envy them. Find foods that you are used to, build homes, and protect yourself from invaders. I know it's not that simple, but to them it is. Family and friends are family and are treated as such. 

So I have a paper due tomorrow on a tribe and I haven't even started it. Yup. Instead of doing my homework all weekend I took a much needed break from everything and immersed myself into the world of sims. I needed it and I actually feel much more relaxed now. There is something about building a house from the ground up and decorating it the way you please that makes me happy. I guess it's my inner architect in there someplace. 

(ADD moment) All throughout high school I wanted to go to school for architectural design. I loved every aspect of designing homes and beautiful buildings for people. Laying the foundation, creating a home for someone who really wanted to create their own home from scratch and really make it THEIRS. 

I gave up on that dream, well more like the Lord told me to give up and told me I had something bigger to do. 

It's funny how you can dream of one thing and then your life changes course. I find it like depending on the wind to control a boat that is set on semi auto pilot. 

You can only go as far as the wind will allow and you have to trust that the wind will bring you to the right destination. Prayerfully keeping your heart and mind open and dependent on the one and only one above.