What the heck? Why am I so gloomy?

So gloomy lately!

I have had some people who have said they were my "friends" block, delete, and talk about me behind their backs.
It's quite upsetting to have this happen. I don't think I'm a bad person, I actually have been told that I am very kind, and loving but when it comes to military spouses... Yikes!
I don't know what I do but man, I drop them quick!

Honestly, I'm glad that the one person who 'dropped' me actually did that. She had been talking about her friends behind their backs to me the last time we hung out, then the next day she was having dinner with them. Warning sign much?

The others, I could care less. I don't need drama in my life. I have enough in our house with our new baby blue/gold macaw (I haven't been on in a while huh?), our two dogs, my husband and our son. That's enough to handle along with school, and the search for a job that will pay enough to be worth my time.

So I don't make friends or keep them easily. It sucks. I agree with my husband when he says that we just need to get out of the military and plant ourselves someplace and go from there. We aren't military material. I thought I would be until I moved to DC and then out here to Vegas.
This crap is hard!!! The ladies I befriended in DC made it look so darn easy!

If you really want to make friends with military spouses, hang out on base or live there. But for me, I don't like base, I avoid it at all costs and I don't really like military spouses because they tend to be flakey. Especially if they live on base. Don't get me wrong, I have met a couple ladies who are so kind and they live on base but they moved. (See my problem here???)

My gosh.

So I was sitting in my living room the other day, folding laundry and I was thinking of how cool it would be to start a YouTube channel. Our life is pretty interesting even on a mundane day like Monday. Let's see today (as in yesterday, aka Monday) I had to hand feed the bird, wash the puppy who decided that tipping over the bird formula and then rolling in said formula would be a great idea, I cleaned up said formula and made more while my three year old was yelling that he had to go to the bathroom while standing right. outside. the. door. of said bathroom.

Then our oldest dog was crying because she couldn't get her bone out from underneath the couch, my husband called to tell me that he forgot something but he didn't know what it was so to be prepared to look for unknown item, the garden/clean up guys came to 'garden' our non-exsistant back yard which btw will be covered in rocks after this weekend (yay for the landlord finally listening).

We also had someone else's package delivered to us, my son asked 1000000000000000000 questions in 2 seconds and expected proper answers to every. single. question.

And I wrote a 10 page paper in 4 hours!

Oh heck yes!

Happy Monday everyone!!

PS... I started doing core exercises again.
PSS. My belly looks like it has blown up thanks to said exercises :(

Style

Well I can't figure out how to get my photos to look pretty so deal with this layout. 

Anyways...

Let's talk about style!! I don't really have one anymore but finally I am getting down to a smaller size and I am starting to feel more comfortable in my body again. {I'll never be used to the stretch marks though} I have been looking around at clothes online and trying to get an idea of what I should buying so I can actually have clothes to wear again. Clothes that don't look like I stole from a homeless person. These are a few photos of what I used to dress like. Before my beautiful {but rather large} child took my body hostage for 10 months. I have been organi-

zing photos to delete, print and so on for the last couple months {yup I have THAT many photos. Don't judge} and even though it's a great way to walk down memory lane it's also hard to see myself in a mostly toned body. Makes me want to go and run 20 miles and pray to God that I lost at least 5 pounds.
Exercise, good eating habits, sleep and staying hydrated are key to maintaining a healthy body weight. Sadly I do not exercise nearly enough and with a three year old you would think I'm running all around but out here, we are mostly inside year round. Not by choice though. Soon
my son will be in prek and will be doing sports

 and so forth. I want to be the mom that is running with him every day while he practices for his big
game against some rival town. I have to stop saying it and instead just jump on the bandwagon and
get my rear in gear!!!

Back to style...

I need new clothes. My walmart duds aren't cutting it anymore. So I think I'm going to stick with the styles in these photos. Light sweaters, tank tops, jeans, add some skirts in, some pretty flawy dresses and some nice trousers and blouses. Did I say I am looking for a full time job?

Oh yeah... I am. I think getting myself back out in the world and working again will help bring back my self esteem and really force me to get back to being Me!

I have quite a few places I want to put my resume into. I am quite excited to be going back to work. It will take me a while though. I have to organize working, going to school full time, being a wife, and a mom. Making sure that the housework gets done {hopefully I can hired someone}, make sure my child is getting the attention and love that he needs and deserves along with buying myself a new car to transport myself to and from work. Or at least pay for my husband to get a new car so that he will have something to drive and I will take the hybrid. Okay way to much talking about cars.
If anyone reads this, I ask that you pray for my family and myself. A job would help so much with paying off bills, help my overall well being, and allow for my family to live a better life.

It is most definitely scary though. I haven't worked a full time job in almost FOUR years!!  That is one heck of a long time to be away from the work force. It's time to get back into the real world again.

Until later,

Bye Bye Y'all!!!