Gotta PEE!!!

That is what my son is saying to get me to go and "rescue" him from his room.

He just went to the bathroom, washed his hands and so on before his night time diaper was put on. 

It's five of eleven.

This has become a daily event in our home. I know it's because he's two and a half and he's trying to control his environment the only way he knows how....

Screaming anything that may let him out of his room for a few more minutes, even a second would be awesome in his mind. 

This only happens when he is extremely tired. And considering that we laid him down at 8:30 rather than the usual 9pm; this is quite weird even for him.

Oh toddlerhood, why are you so darn mean to me!!?!?!?!

Other news, anthropology hates me. I had the beloved 4.0 gpa up until this point and now I will be lucky if I get over a 3.5. Dang it! I've got to kick it up a notch! 

I really don't like anthro. I understand the purpose of the class, realizing that our little box of a world that we live in here in the US is not the only world. Every thing we do, effects someone else. No matter who or where they are, they can be effected. 

Being the smart butt that I am, I thought I would look up anthropology videos on youtube. 

I was so sick by what I saw that I couldn't finish the video. It had nothing to do about the people in the video, it had to do with what was happening to those poor people who just wanted to live their simple lives. I actually envy them. Find foods that you are used to, build homes, and protect yourself from invaders. I know it's not that simple, but to them it is. Family and friends are family and are treated as such. 

So I have a paper due tomorrow on a tribe and I haven't even started it. Yup. Instead of doing my homework all weekend I took a much needed break from everything and immersed myself into the world of sims. I needed it and I actually feel much more relaxed now. There is something about building a house from the ground up and decorating it the way you please that makes me happy. I guess it's my inner architect in there someplace. 

(ADD moment) All throughout high school I wanted to go to school for architectural design. I loved every aspect of designing homes and beautiful buildings for people. Laying the foundation, creating a home for someone who really wanted to create their own home from scratch and really make it THEIRS. 

I gave up on that dream, well more like the Lord told me to give up and told me I had something bigger to do. 

It's funny how you can dream of one thing and then your life changes course. I find it like depending on the wind to control a boat that is set on semi auto pilot. 

You can only go as far as the wind will allow and you have to trust that the wind will bring you to the right destination. Prayerfully keeping your heart and mind open and dependent on the one and only one above. 

Is optometry right for me?

Sometimes I feel that I'm setting the bar too low. 

Should I be going for something that will not only challenge me but pay really well? 

I love optometry. The human eye fascinates me and has a grip on me when I start searching online for information. I'm not even finished with my bachelors degree and I'm gazing to the future!

With all of my classes lined up back to back for the next three-ish years I wonder if I will ever want to go another four years to go for my doctorate. 

I want it but is that really a good enough reason to spend the money and time away from my little family? 

When I finish my undergrad I will be 30ish my son will be turning six and I will have been married for eight years and most likely I will have another child. 

I like planning for the future but I have our Lord Jesus guiding the way and he can see so much clearer up there. 

Shopping list for WHAT?!?!?!

So I've been stuck in a rut.
I was going to the gym and eating really clean and healthy and then I stopped. I haven't gained any weight but I have lost muscle, LOTS of the very beautiful muscle that was working so hard for!

So now I've been looking for a way to clean all the garbage out of my body. Our family has started implementing organic and all natural foods into our eating habits.
Okay so Jerm and I have. DH has been sneaking cokes behind my back, which I find disgusting. Ever since he stopped drinking soda he hasn't had any issues with his teeth. I foresee a very angry husband who needs more dental work in the near future.

Anyways. So I've been looking up cleanses. I found one that was 24 hours and you only drank some type of tea, that sounded too much like my experience with golytely... ick.
Then there where the more extreme cleanses were you fast for almost a full month and eat a very strict diet and take pills, and drink teas and so on. That was something I was willing to do except I knew that you didn't need a FULL month to cleanse your body. You can do a base cleanse and then eat healthy from then on and your body will not be harmed.

Sooooo... I found Dr. Oz 48 Hour Cleanse. I looked up the different ingredients and researched to make sure that I wasn't doing this for nothing. When researching I remembered that I did a cleanse close to this when I was in high school. Did it work then? Yes, but I did it for far too long thinking that I would be able to lose weight quicker. Stupid teenage me. Thankfully I realized halfway through the month that I wasn't helping my body and just started to eat clean.
This cleanse though looks legit and with the different foods that actually help clean out the body naturally working together in unison, I am actually quite happy to try it! I will be gathering all my things and doing this either this week or this weekend. I can't decide if having my husband home will make it harder to do or easier hahaha

Big coffee big day

Quick post time! 

As a stay at home mom, I honestly feel that everyday is a rush to get everything done on my list. Yet majority if the time, my list only has one or two things crossed off at the end of the day but I'm still exhausted. 

Today I'm challenging myself to clean the entire house top to bottom. 

And with my big cup of coffee I may actually achieve it. 

Not preggy... yay?

Okay so my husband already knows that I really want another baby but his reasoning for not having one right now are very sincere and caring. He wants me to get back to a healthy weight and get really strong and stay strong so that I can have our next child naturally.
Some of our family thinks that he is being controlling, and that if I want another child that he should give me a child.
But honestly, I agree with my husband. I want to be strong, and healthy and no matter how many stretch marks I have I want to know that the next baby who lives in my womb for over 10 months (yup Jerm was in there for a long time), will be able to come out naturally even if he or she is freaking huge!

So I am just going to continue to work out (I took a week or so off ooopppss...) and keep eating healthy (this I am doing really well at) and get myself to be healthy like I was well before Jerm was born.

Other news!!! I have gotten a good chunk of Jerm's pregnancy and birth story written and can't wait to finish, edit and post it on here. His birth story isn't going to be pretty. Honestly it's quite sad considering that nothing went as planned. But my child who is currently running laps upstairs with me while I write this is the most amazing thing I have done and will ever do in my life! He still will be the most amazing thing even when I complete my doctorate, and even when I have another child. He changed my life, made me a mother. I will never be the same person I was, I will always have his life to dictate who I am, what I do and what I will become. My husband is my partner and my other half, I love him so much, and even though we fight I love him. He gave me the other half to make our beautiful, smart, spunky, amazing child.


Other news...

Binki or "Dede" as it is known in our home has been cut. Literally cut. I provided a photo.

Sad day, my little guy is a big boy!

"Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things." Colossians 3:2

Such a easy verse to remember and has become a favorite of mine in the past year or so.
When we lived in DC life was completely different than living here in Vegas. I had a decent paying job that I was excelling in and moving at a pretty good pace, a lifestyle that I had always wanted, we went out to eat almost every day, spent $1000s of dollars on clothes and food and lived in a decent apartment that cost us over $2000 to rent per month just for rent, not including all the utilities and such to keep the place running. None of those things I wanted to give up. Nothing was more important than the money I was making, and the material things I was able to buy because of that money. I didn't want to give any of that up for anything!
That was my problem though, I didn't want to give anything up.
God knew my heart, he knew that before all of the money, before all of the materialistic bull crap that I had placed in my life, I wanted a family.
He also knew that if we didn't leave the nation's capital that not only would I become lost from him, but that I would lose my husband and even though the two of us fought like cats and dogs sometimes, I loved him dearly and God made us for each other and that was made very apparent especially when you hear our story.

I wholeheartedly believe that our Lord, who knew how badly I loved that area, gave us a child and had us move to the other side of the US to have us learn something, something so very important that otherwise we would have never of learned:

To love Him first, to love each other second and to love our child third.


"Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things." Colossians 3:2

I first came across this verse by accident a little over a year ago. I was still dwelling on the fact that I was so very far away from the place that I called home- the east coast- and so far away from everything that I loved so dearly- making money mostly but also our family (even thought we did not visit nearly enough).
I was looking for a verse about something, who knows what because really I wasn't going to do anything with it. I wanted it as a Facebook status, how stupid and fake.

Instead I found something much better and in God's divine planning had it miss-marked on google. Good Morning Girls was the first website that popped up with this photo:

Well played God well played! I thought sure this is great, I'll download it and do something with it later. My husband set it as our background on accident and just left it there. So everyday for about 3 months I saw it. Finally I prayed about it and that Sunday we went to church and heard a sermon all about the greed of our country and how we need to look at our hearts.

God spoke to my heart that morning and brought that photo into my mind so clearly that without closing my eyes I could see it.

I have chosen to stop looking out the window at what other's have, and start looking in my home.
I find myself frequently sitting on the stairs while my husband and son watch tv and play together. The dirty dishes in the sink don't matter, nor does the fact that there are things in places they need not be. My life isn't perfect and I'm sick of pretending that it is.

God moved us out here to Sin City to learn, to change us, and to do something BIG!

I'm sick of acting like this place is hell. It's not hell, and it's not even close to being hell.

The last couple of blog entries have been pretty much the same thing. Telling you that I am changing or that I will change and telling you about what I want to do rather than just doing it.

This blog is going to do something, at least I hope it does.

My hopes for this blog are pretty simple:

I want to help people, somehow, someway
I want to use this blog as a tool to keep myself on track with my goals;
                                    Be a amazing wife, mother, daughter, and friend.
                                    Keep my Lord front and center, right up there ahead.
                                    I want to "Keep it Real" No more lying to myself, no more faking anything. I                        
                           want people to SEE ME!! No more pretending to be someone else. I am who I am and
                           if you don't like it fine by me. Just move on!
                                   Strive to be a Psalm 31 wife; I will be the first to admit that I do NOT like "giving in" to what my husband wants. Honestly, I really hate it but you know what? Wives are to be submissive to the husband. Our Lord protects us all but gives guidance to our husbands so they can protect our home.
       

Still no sign of... Not being pregnant?

Hello ya'll!! 

Today is a very boring day in our home. As I type this my entire little family are asleep (besides me of course) on my husband's and my bed. That includes our pup too! 

I think it's time for a bigger bed like yesterday. Okay more like the moment we found out we were having Jerm.

My dh has a four day weekend, and is going to help me spiff up the house! Yeah right! He will, maybe. 

Sometime this weekend we will be going to see some dolphins and white tigers. My dh hasn't spilled the beans on the location though. I will most definitely take photos. I've got to remember to charge the DSLR batteries. I always forget!

So I bought my first set of Scentsy wax bar thingys. I did not buy their overpriced warmer though, I bought mine from classy Walmart and saved close to $20 doing so. I wanted the owl but I think I can find one elsewhere for much less. 

Weight loss update: I haven't lost weight but I have lost inches. If I am pregnant I am going to continue to tone and workout. That was the issue last time, I stopped it all. Working out, toning, eating healthy. It all just stopped! Which is why I gained close to 100lbs :/ can't hate anyone BUT myself!!

I feel like this will be my farewell till the day I graduate and then some for work studies but...

Off to go do the homework, ta-ta for now and God Bless!